CAN SOMEONE EXPLAIN WHY I AM SO STUPID?!

You may not know this, but I'm obsessed sugared almonds! I've once tried to make them at home but they didn't turn Out that well, it looked more like a brick of sugar with almonds in it.

As I overheard a conversation (just accidently of course) that you can make sugared almonds in the microwave, I naturally had to try it! 

It's not hard, you only need almonds, sugar, cinnamon, water and, most importantly, a heat-resistant bowl! I thought I could use the one I normally use to heat up food, but nope, as you might guess, my bowl wasn't really hear-resistant. That Is my second time I fucked up completely with the microwave (the first time I set something on fire in it).

This is How the bowl and the almonds looked at the end (the almonds that are not black taste good):

If someone asks where the bowl is, I don't know it! 

BIRTHDAY PARTY ON FRIDAY

Just when I told told you before that life is just not working for me, I can tell you a little story that will confirm my thesis.
I was invited to a birthday this friday and the host send us an almost a really good picture as 'orientation'. That's why we ended up on the wrong party. We saw a building and people were going in, so we thought it was the right party and even the women at the door said there is a birthday. We went further in and realised we knew no one! And the people there looked just as confused as us. Oops... wrong party! In the end we found the right one and it was a good night. Yet my luck wasn't back. Do you know the video where a boy jumps into a puddle and disappears? Something similar happened to me. I wasn't completely covered with water because I just stepped in with one foot, but the whole foot over my ankle was wet and dirty. Does anyone know how to wash my shoe??
Anyways, here's a picture of a friend and me at the party :)

I GUESS IT DOESN'T WORK FOR ME

I mean life. Life just doesn't work for me.
It's not that I'm negative about it, actually it's the other way around - I love life! It just seems like it doesn't love me. If I'd be honest to myself, I would say that I also don't do anything for it to be better, but of course I won't blame me.
The thing is, a lot of things aren't working out for me. My future seems so uncertain and I can't find a way that will work for me, that will make me happy. I just see compromises, and I don't want that, because it leaves me unhappy and uncompleted. My whole year was a big compromise! I wanted to study Management and Economics (I must admit, it was also not exactly the thing I wanted, but it was the thing I looked the most forward to, because I ecpected the most out of it) but I wasn't able to study it because of my own stupidy - and my brother's way to tell me I'm not doing things right but also don't want to tell me the right thing - so I studied business mathematics with the expectation that there will be special courses for it, like mathematic for business people. Needless to say I was never so wrong in my life. It turned out I went to the same courses like normal mathematic students. Soon I realized that it's definetely nothing for me! I'm not stupid (I guess?) but that is waaay to hard! I don't the point in studying something I'm not interested in, I don't want to and I'm not happy with. Thus I applicated to all universities that are near my hometown, for every subject I'm interested in. Guess how many confirmations I got? Right, none. I decided to attempt a second start with business mathematics.... and nothing changed. Still too hard, still not interested, still unhappy. So that was the second compromise! The third compromise I did just few minutes ago. I wrote an application for a bookshop. One year ago I did an internship in this one, and I liked it, but I also realised I didn't want to do it for the rest of my life. But here I am! Writing an application for it! Just another compromise in my life.
Some may say I'm not working hard enough but what should I work for? I can't see anthing worth working for. I don't think it's worth fighting for something that makes you unhappy. And I don't see anything reachable that will make me happy. My new background for my phone is: 'If you can't stop thinking about it, don't stop working for it.', it's nice, right? I can't stop thinking about this blog, but I can't imagine it will finance me, just like I can't imagine I will be succesful with it. Both go hand in hand. Should I still work for it? And see what happens? I always think it's too late, I should have been more stable with my posts 3 years ago. Then I think: there are a lot of singers and actors out there, and still new ones make it. I guess I just have to try it... but it will need time, and I'm afraid I won't have enough.

NEW YEAR - NEW ME

HhJOkay, I've said it several times, but this time I will really start blogging on a regular basis! Just another time I made the previous posts private, so that they don't disturb the aesthetic haha

Anyway, I hope this year will be my year! I don't really have any resolutions except of more fitness, healthy eating and having a proper skincare routine. 

And of course: blogging! :D 

I will do my best to achieve this!! I hope all of you have a great year or day! :)