I know this pretty well because I'm doing it all the time. I'm discouraged really easily. My brother says I do not have successful experiences thus I don't believe in myself. I guess he might be right. I can't remember the last time I did something I can be really proud of. Everything I do, I do half-hearted or wrong. Am I that untalented or did I just not found the right thing? When will I finally find out what I'm good at?! Actually the days are getting really hard for me and I feel that I'm distancing myself from myself, this may sound weird but I don't feel like myself anymore. I feel like I'm becoming cold and dull if that makes sense. But I want to be the complete opposite! I know I have that in me, I want to be that girl. It's just hard to be her when life is constantly giving me lemons, or am I giving them myself?
Anyways, I don't feel like blogging much. Primary because I don't have much time, and because I feel ugly, I'm sad and it's cold outside. I should be learning but I feel too depressed because I failed my first exam.
Life is truly wonderful.
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