Friday, 13 February 2015

When nothing goes as expected

I've said it so many times and still I did not learn anything. It has to do with my life and somehow it reflects on this blog. 
Strangers would describe me as shy while friends would say I'm outgoing. What am I? Deep inside I would say I'm that shy little girl that does not dare to speak up and is concerned about what others may think of her. The roots of this behavior lie somewhere in my childhood I guess. 
In addition I'm full of self-doubt. I can't think of me as successful, just as a failure. This is also what kept me off this blog. My answer to questions like: 'Will you make it successful?' is always no. Too much of a risk, people I know may find out about it, I'm not pretty enough. Simply not good enough. Now I'm at a point where this behavior does not work anymore. 
It is my dream to make this thing happen and I won't stop until I reach my goal. I won't be afraid anymore and I promise I will keep this blog updated as much as I can. I will believe in my dreams and especially in my abilities to make it happen and I will believe in myself. 

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